Some sort of an epiphany came to me….
tonight. The guy I had been “dating” for awhile then pretty much told me I wasn’t for him had been the subject of my embittered rants for awhile now and then I came to think about the good times we had. I was so busy focusing on the negative things that happened between us or that he said to me, that I forgot to reflect on the good things. I was so stuck on the “woe is me” role and “ugh I can’t believe all I did for him” way of thinking. We had really great times together and I appreciate them, I hope to find time like that with whoever I end up finding next. I’m trying really hard to move past and I’m making the choice to not be bitter about the fact that he didn’t want me. He had his reasons, what they are I don’t know, and I have to accept it. I also have to understand that there is may or may not be someone out there for me but I have to patiently wait until they come, I can’t have “others” filling that void or spot until they get here. For the next person that comes I want to have a cleansed and open heart and mind, it wouldn’t be fair to me or them to let them walk into mess and expecting them to help clean it up. It also would not be fair to drag someone down knowing that I have no intentions of being serious with them. I have plenty more to say but I am running out of ways to word it so I’ll stop right here. Here’s to the unknown.
-Muse
“Since you’re Afrocentric and all….”
This statement annoys me to no end why is that you assume that just because I have a ‘fro I got spoken word open mic nights, burn incense and scream hotep everywhere I go? I have no problem with people who are like this I just hate being labeled and be put into a lump of assumptions. Ugh, do any other naturals get this?
Thank you, my Manatee friend. <3
I needed this.
Saving for future posterity.
What are the chances that this would pop up on my dash after that post…?
(Source: scienceandrollerskates)
I feel like dropping out now….
I can never get ahead and stay focused. One step forward and another step behind. I spent my semester worrying about frivolous shit and focusing on my minor that I failed my most important class. This shit has got to stop or I will never graduate, I’m already tired of people asking me when I’m going to graduate seeing as though it won’t be Spring 2013. (._. ) I can probably forget about getting a masters now, what grad school would even want to look at my transcript. I’m so over school.
